push it to the other side

okeyy~
this is some kind of stressful decision and condition..
i'm in between !
i need someone to help me to figure out this matter and first time in my whole life i called it as a serious one.. and is this SERIOUS ?!!
i am not a big girl yet mummy ! sorry if i always put everything on you and leave evrything for you to handle alone it just i don't want to argue with you.. i know i never want to listen for any of your suggestion.. it doesn't mean i'm disobey you,i just aim for my ambition and if the course that is given to me didn't ensure me to work in hospital,curing as my life as i could i'll refuse to accept it mum.. i know its hard for you but without you knowing it is also killing me.. i will never ever could concentrate during my lecture..

and i want to say thanks for applying the private university for me and its really meant to me..
and now i don't want to take back my words..
the interview is on 30th.july and i have only two days start from this second..
my heart beat faster now and i just have to wait till that moment gone so i could exhale perfectly..
the truth is i need a hug right now ! *faint

great stuff !

okey ! this is kind of cool !

i've been looking at this for too long and finally i'd got it..

red always be my favourite ! 

once i wore you at my feet felt like i won't take you off..

*triple thumbs up 

you can fly..?

A-MAZE-ING !

something fabulous be a part of our family now..

sugar glider !

but it is not mine..its belong to my sister..

she have a pair.. ~the end~

something to get off my mind !

now i feel like i must find for another way out..!
but until now i don't even get any idea how..
everyone said that i must accept it and just give it try
HELLO ! that is soo not a try let me tell you it is such a waste !
i do not want to waste 3 years just to attend the class and lecture that i don't even want to..
mine is all about being at the hospital either work as a doctor or maybe a pharmacist..

i never doubt the thing that is given to me..
i accept it as sustenance but what is the used if after all this year i haven't get enough sleep just want to get a better result and i'd got it but the course that i ever wanted i don't even get it.. was it fair ?

that is soo unfair !
right now i can't think briefly !

here the result from UPU fucking shit system for student intake !

a trip

 wwooouuuhhh !
what a fantastic planning..
it start with just a fast conversation between us,an approaching after a long time haven't been contact each other..

finally now we already at KUALA LUMPUR enjoying our trip together..
thursday night we speed up our car and get away from the place name INDERA MAHKOTA..
okey feeling soo tired to write the news for this while so i leave it to photo to tell all of you.. gudnite ~

less than 12 hours

half a day time for me to get downtown and get to know what happen around me..
seem like not much changes just the way it is..
KUANTAN ??!!
nothing we as kuantanese get if we spend our lifetime living here..
but i've got this..
CHECK IT OUT !

memory of photos

a long day with her
something got to boost from this mind but seem nothing else left
FULLSTOP !

real journal !

this is the real things i had been through in my whole life..
waking up quite early in the morning,taking a shower and put on my working outfit..
what a bored life..!
i only got one day in a week for my own..
WHAT A MESS !
rarely meet my friends to hang along like i did before..
work,work and work !
i miss my old life were i had something useful to think off and do something fun for myself not like now i don't even had enough time for my own.. sometime i skip my breakfast and sometime i skip my early sleep time..
even more worse than my life at matriculation bfore..

at least i had enough sleep but now i only spend 4~5 hours a day for sleep..
that is not a good sign for my health..
my eyes look just like a PANDA and its so unacceptable

NEW EXISTENCE !

wooww !
no more a million years !
i don't have to wait for another years to have a new gadget to accompany me all the time whenever i need it..
no it is right here in front of me..

actually the official date when did i got my "BASKY" i don't even remember because its happen in just a blink of an eyes..
it is like i am dreaming..
arghh ! no idea what else words should i write to express how happy i am right now..
what a sweet fortune !
this is my new lappy-lappo.

the end forever

thank You ALLAH !
this blessing Tuesday the first thing i saw right after i woke up from the couch is my final result for the very final semester in matriculation program..
i open up my eyes,
stand up properly,
looking for my laptop and connect the broadband..
the first name i've type at the google search was f.a.c.e.b.o.o.k..
the reason why i'm looking for this web is just to know how many people has know their result..
then i ask one of my classmate the official account to know for my result..
LOADING....
thump,thump,thump
my heart beat faster and faster until it is successfully connected..
finally everything gave me a good and great fortune..
thank You ALLAH..
i haven't waste every second in my life for the whole program in matriculation..