what is facebook ?

since i've sick with this social networking so i decide to deactivate the account and acting like i don't know what exactly is going on.. and pretending like i dont have one ! that's cool ! the main reason why i hate this social networking because i feel everyone was like waa facebook..! busteng sangat..
facebook is nothing and it just wasting my time when i scroll it down and up but there's nothing change.. maybe i will be back when i think facebook was cooler than the other social networking in the future,perhaps 

college life

everything had change started from the first day i went here,Penang..
not enough time to care about my social networking and also time for myself to taking care of but it is end till i came to weekend.. the orientation week was so damn pathetic,i just got a sunburn due to the outdoor activity.. everyone was confused why must we followed such that things since we've sign for doctor but we need to get through the whole one week just like soldier.. bit confusing there !
for today's entry there no photo to be uploaded cause had no time to choose for something better.. happy reading you guys. promised to post all the photos during the orientation week later on.. okay !  

an interview

this story happened last monday..

not much left,just elaborate from the photo that has taken during the trip..

a view from our room at the PUTRA HOTEL

i'm ready for the interview and yes i'm look so kampung but who cares

indoor view

 

miss the old me

HELLO AUGUST !
blow the july away.. fuuuhhh
now my life is about sitting at home scroll down my twitter timeline and fall asleep in front of my lappy and when i woke up its already 6 o'clock in the evening.. my mind is likes already set up when should i wake up so i never missed my iftar since AUGUST is a fasting month for this year..
then i took a shower and ready for iftar..
for tonight event i watch my lil' brother played the fireworks outside the house for sure and its enough reminds me back to my childhood where i played the firework along with my sister and all of my cousin..
we've tried something extreme with the firecrackers and laugh till we can't even catch our breath.. what a wonderful childhood i ever had.. i wish i could turn back on time..

right now at this moment i have nothing to do.. i feel like i want to be alone for all the time..

i'm not sure what am i suppose to do because whenever i plan for something the plan will never work..

that why i trust this words "unplanned moment is better than planned one" but it is also impossible for me to always follow with the flow of this life cause the risk is too high unless i'm a type of girl who can ignore the people around me..

i had tried it before and looks like i'd failed..

before i enter to matriculation i planned not to care about the people around me no matter what happen but its too selfish and i realise that i couldn't live alone for all the time because i need to help whoever in need even i didn't get anything in return cause for me a help is not like someone owe you something but it is something that you must give and never take.. 

*that only my opinion* ;)

that's why no matter how best the institute that we're get in if our attitude never gave our life the best we still cannot survive.. seriously i miss my matriculation life !

i miss the time i've got something to do

i miss the time when i'm able to wake up early in the morning

i miss the time where i sat on my chair and doing me own work

i miss the time when all of my roommate fall asleep afte the class and its including me

the thing that...,

i really miss is the time where four of us struggling our best so all the insect that exist in our room know that they didn't belong in there.

*and i miss this hair !

HARD TO SAY !

there must be something behind all this..

i have know idea how to accept all this when everything that is given to me is about a lie.. is there is no true thing is this world,in this life..? *wondering*

i know i should never blame the faith,the things that is written for me in my whole life till my last breath..

i just can't even think about it..!

am i to bad to live in this world,to breath equally like the others..

i really have no idea which part did i miss until i have to get through a kind of toughest one..

i'm not that strong..

my strength had gone..

or maybe i had laugh so hard until i never realise that the laugh will gave me the most sad life in return..

i don't know !

i just can leave everything to Allah and try to live even i had fail in trying..

maybe the glory is not by today but the day when Allah think that i deserve to feel it..

if there is no one out there willing to do everything for me then i pray and willing to do everything to avoid from meeting people and approach them..

life is do hard ! 

If Allah wills it one day i will never drop even a tear for anything that happen in my life bcause i'm not strong enough to face all this right now..

push it to the other side

okeyy~
this is some kind of stressful decision and condition..
i'm in between !
i need someone to help me to figure out this matter and first time in my whole life i called it as a serious one.. and is this SERIOUS ?!!
i am not a big girl yet mummy ! sorry if i always put everything on you and leave evrything for you to handle alone it just i don't want to argue with you.. i know i never want to listen for any of your suggestion.. it doesn't mean i'm disobey you,i just aim for my ambition and if the course that is given to me didn't ensure me to work in hospital,curing as my life as i could i'll refuse to accept it mum.. i know its hard for you but without you knowing it is also killing me.. i will never ever could concentrate during my lecture..

and i want to say thanks for applying the private university for me and its really meant to me..
and now i don't want to take back my words..
the interview is on 30th.july and i have only two days start from this second..
my heart beat faster now and i just have to wait till that moment gone so i could exhale perfectly..
the truth is i need a hug right now ! *faint

great stuff !

okey ! this is kind of cool !

i've been looking at this for too long and finally i'd got it..

red always be my favourite ! 

once i wore you at my feet felt like i won't take you off..

*triple thumbs up 

you can fly..?

A-MAZE-ING !

something fabulous be a part of our family now..

sugar glider !

but it is not mine..its belong to my sister..

she have a pair.. ~the end~

something to get off my mind !

now i feel like i must find for another way out..!
but until now i don't even get any idea how..
everyone said that i must accept it and just give it try
HELLO ! that is soo not a try let me tell you it is such a waste !
i do not want to waste 3 years just to attend the class and lecture that i don't even want to..
mine is all about being at the hospital either work as a doctor or maybe a pharmacist..

i never doubt the thing that is given to me..
i accept it as sustenance but what is the used if after all this year i haven't get enough sleep just want to get a better result and i'd got it but the course that i ever wanted i don't even get it.. was it fair ?

that is soo unfair !
right now i can't think briefly !

here the result from UPU fucking shit system for student intake !

a trip

 wwooouuuhhh !
what a fantastic planning..
it start with just a fast conversation between us,an approaching after a long time haven't been contact each other..

finally now we already at KUALA LUMPUR enjoying our trip together..
thursday night we speed up our car and get away from the place name INDERA MAHKOTA..
okey feeling soo tired to write the news for this while so i leave it to photo to tell all of you.. gudnite ~