beach is all i miss

Chaos for a week !

I can't even catch for my breath.. The whole week had consumed my energy and let's start with Monday 18th.november.2013.. Class start at 8 o'clock in the morning which the day before I was hoping Monday to suicide so that I can start the week on Tuesday but still the first day in week.. The point here is no matter how hard we've tried to push Monday away nothing gonna change the nature that it should came first in each week(just if you know what I meant!).. Monday's evening was the most scariest part,problem based learning(PBL) session that had been facilitated by Dr.Pramanik,well-known doctor who got lots and lots of questions to ask and doubted each sentence that you presented.. No matter how interesting your notes are,no matter how much colour you've wasted to print out the notes he really doesn't care if you didn't know how to explain..
Since we already in third semester he expect us to know and memorized all the basics for each topics.. Sounds crazy haa.. Yes ! It is ! When it comes to Tuesday mini test is waiting and all I need to do is sat on the grey color chair and answer all the questions as usual even though you don't know the correct answer as long as you've filled the blank pages it considered as correct. Then practical session for two hours learned on how to calculate the percentage of people who are smoke but not developing a lung cancer and the difference with those who didn't smoke and developed a lung cancer.. O.o
Third days of the week..,
New PBL session early in the morning with new unfamiliar lecturer from Insaniah College that exposed us with the new ways to discuss the learning issues which I found it fun,quite fun where we does not need to prepare any slides to present or even notes to print.. All we need to do is read all the learning issues and discuss it during the next PBL session(second session ! )..
Thursday came next after Wednesday and I haven't fully prepared for my poster presentation and plus it was my birthday 21.november.2013.. Yeahh,surprise party on my birthday I was over thinking about that as I don't really like the tradition of getting shower with eggs,flour,curry powder or whatever.. L.O.L. Ohmyy ! I supposed to tell it in the next entry..
Get back to our hectic week..
Then here comes Friday !
The International Stem Cell Seminar 2013 !
As one of the committee on that day I proudly said I was looking so good.! Wow ! Wearing a formal outfit with blazer and a tag written as organiser.. Unfortunately,I have to be a poster presenter for my group which is not good at all because I need to control the seminar and practicing on how to present for my topic both in one time.. Got too many things to share but short time to describe the moment.. Photos tell us much about the moments than words did..

She's amazing !

Hello Saturday !
My beautiful sister on her graduation day.. OMG ! OMG ! OMG !
She made it and I am very proud of her.. She's wine up with her "diploma" under University Teknologi Mara (UiTM) in food technology.. First of all,congratulation along and I am really sorry I cannot be there to share the golden moment with you.. I suppose to be there as I promised but I got test on that day,seriously I was thinking about you on that day because I felt the moment during mum's convocation.. It would be great if all of our family members were there during our big day,I mean your big day for now..
You know why I was so proud to have you..,
1) you're beautiful and that's what I see in you even though you always said that 'God I need something to whiten my skin','God this outfit was terrible'..! God you don't need those my dear sister because you are pretty from the inside and that's make you look much more prettier outside.
2) crazy mind and thought,hey from where you got those ! Lol.. No over thinking and just flew with the wind that makes me feel comfortable when I was around you. I could laugh without limit,I could turn upside down and I feel more alive..
3) bad driving skill,yes ! You are bad in driving ! You know that right because when you drive me I always said heyy,heyy watch that car. Holy shit,you almost hit the BMW (kidding!) but at least you are good in parking,that's matter..
4) going to bed early. Ohmyy ! You got no night life or what ?! You got the same habit with mum.. When it comes to 9 o'clock at night you always yawning and fall asleep unless your boyfriend was around just then you can stay up for the whole night as usual haaa..

These are the reason why I love you to the moon and back.. Wait I don't think to the moon is far enough okay I changed that.. I love you to Pluto and back and Pluto and back.. Can you count the distance now ? I love you that much Siti nurdhiyya binti Rosli !

mum's graduation day !

OHMYYY !
how come I forgot to write about this lovely and delightful moment..

Date : 5th October 2013
Venue : university malaysia pahang,UMP
Course : executive diploma in business administration

here come the picture on her big day !

                               

B that should stand for B.U.S.Y !

it almost 12 midnight and the new day is about to start.. i woke up this morning realised that it is already November and actually in the middle of November.. i haven't wrote anything since last two months and my writing skill also quite bad,i guess.! it was like from summer to winter and since Malaysia not one of the country then forget about the snowman and thick blanket all cause we only in the monsoon season.. just don't forget to bring your umbrella dude..
Let's travel along with me..!
November is all about raining but you still can see the sun during the day for certain day just if you are lucky(just if you know what i mean.)
the night sky that used to fill with billion stars seems so dark as the cloud mask the beauty of it.. The moonlight seems dull as moon always depend on star to shine just like the shore depend on waves to complete the beauty of the beach. That's how monsoon diminished the mood of those who truly depends on nature but I didn't say the night sky without stars is kind of soul-destroying..
get back to our story of "Hectic-Month-Of-The-Year"..
in one year got twelve months and in one month got thirty-one days and in one day got twenty-four hours and thats how we count our life and the main question here do we appreciate every hour we spend daily ? not everyone get through such a trouble-free life because it depends on how we muddle along..
studying medicine is the best decision I've ever made and now I am facing the big challenge in my life which is surviving and adapting the environment where most of people here put their 100% efforts to be the best among the best.. I step on the pavement in the garden of roses where the milk fountain was just beyond a huge stone arch and all I need to do is keep on walking even though the snake's venom flow in my bloodstream,the roses torn penetrate my skin and even get stung by bees.
As we know not all the things going to be fine in the end but we can change the plot by changing the sentence.. That shows the power of action.! We need courage in order to make it happen..
Courage had brings me to this far,no one deserve the praise except Allah Almighty.. Remember no matter how hard we try if we never turn and ask from Allah there's no thing work.
To make the story become more amusing let's talk about how can I survive till now..
November 2013,
officially me Siti Nurul Shafirah binti Rosli was already in the third semester and second year in medicine.. Even there are 6 more years to get the license, I feel indebted.. Alhamdulillah.

"people laugh because I'm different but i laugh because they are all the same"

quite fast for fasting

since this is my first entry for Ramadhan so i need to make thing sound simple..

i can't believe that i have to get through the fasting month away from home. Can't barely thinking how and why is it happening.. I mean yeaa i still 19 and yet need to live on my own or "independent" ways. 

I still couldn't adapt with the environment,with the people around but it doesn't mean i need to complaint for every single minute. 

maybe I really need to learn,learn on how to make things better and interesting instead of standing and staring..

I believe I can do this..!

I've got choices but then i chose to be here for reasons and why didn't I live in it ?

too many complaint..! 

i have to stop complaining ! I had read one fact said that "to compare those who complaint more tend not to have a high level of stress rather than those who didn't". and now i don't think its a fact,I think its a myth some sort of invalid studied. 

maybe i need to change,change the way i think,the way i act and the way i tried but it doesn't means that I'm going to change myself.. NO ! I just fine with me and i please myself first in everything before everyone does and before i please people. already second semester and got another 8 more semester to go. I need to be strong enough to walk on the street,to climb up the stairs because life need me to explore,it needs me to stand for it instead of giving up.

first step

here comes the Sunday !

the day that i should spend enjoying my frappuccino instead of staying home and doing the assignment but yet i "enjoy" doing it with no reason actually. 

yeah last night i slept at 4 and woke up at 11 just for assignment.

it was an assignment at first but after more than three hours i spend to decorate it, I dont really think it was just an assignment. artistic works !

making the "POSTER" for nutrition and metabolism's seminar that i need to submit it by tomorrow.

i started to find for the point at 12 and just now 5.30 pm it officially done and complete.! 

this is the result and thanks to posterwall ! i need a short break like nowww ! gtg

last expectation and first destination

Friday for the first week of July.

everything goes right for this while but not expecting something bad to happen just thankful that there's no awful thing come around. 

Feels very tired because of mini test and End-Of-Module examination in the same week with just two days gap in between it. I "need" like "HAVE TO" chill on as I already forced my spongy to absorb and think but gave no enough rest during night. I'm sorry ! 

maybe in the future it will understand what is the main point of treating it this way..

since it is Friday lets say thanks :

1.to Allah for the sustenance 

2.to Allah for giving me a chance to live again

3. to Allah for gave me perfect air to breath in

4. to Allah for taking a good care of me

5. to Allah for borrowed me my parents

6. to Allah cause I live as Muslim

7.to Allah for ease everything

most blessing day of the week goes to Friday where there's no other days felt the same like Friday. 

just stop it !

today was the last day of June and it goes wrong to me like insane one.
or maybe its a sign that July gonna be as crunchy as cocoCrunch,in sya Allah but yet still feel bad about today.. hello people ! it is Sun-day ! and it is weekend ! why must you gave me a damn !
before i proceed to the next movie i think it is more proper if i start with 00.00 am.

00.00 am : fall asleep like seriously ?! how come i've drank two cup of coffee about 12 hours before and it taste like s**t. too much coffee !
01.15 am : woke up and immediately stand on my feet. OMJAYYY ! its already 1 in the morning.
01.35 am : took a shower and its freaking cold,I'm freezing
02.45 am : switch on my laptop and continue with my study as its already Sunday,tomorrow got mini test for addition.
04.35 am : poouufff~ black out. WTF ! I'm all alone in the living room at this time. Call my housemate who already slept in the room as i can't even move my ass,then again i do the technician work,dealing with fucking fuse box.
04.56 am : alone again and took all of my stuff and continue in my room.
09.24 am : suddenly fall asleep as my head were spinning around and all i remember the last word that i read in the blue covered book of Biochemistry before i black out was 1,25-dihydroxyvitamin D3.
13.21 pm : woke up and survive before i took a shower.
15.35 pm : finished with my shower and ready to hunt for food

the real drama started....,

walk down the stair.
walk out from this place,

there's no food at the first destination and i was asking

"still want to look for food ?"

she replied, "ikot lah"

me was like what the hell man ! just now you were like okay lets go find a food then you were saying "ikot lah",

suddenly she said "there's got one restaurant front there and i want to go"

me : " hey fuck off ! you asked me to go with you thought we want to eat along but then you were like better i eat alone"

this is so fucking stupid ! 

then find for something else to eat and drink at the grocery shop. paid ! Walk to the "restaurant" that she said just now and it closed. since i talking to the phone then i walk first but then she walk faster and left me behind even when i've yelled for her name yet she ignored me like she didn't hear anything. I don't even know that she was deaf.

its already second semester and i know you very well my dear. I never tell anyone about you but you tell everybody about what cross in your mind about me and others.

HEY LET ME TELL YAA PLEASE STOP JUDGING PEOPLE AROUND YOU ! 

HEY PLEASE STOP MAKING ASSUMPTION WITH THE WAY PEOPLE ACT ! 

HEY PLEASE STOP TALKING STUPID THINGS LIKE "WHAT DID I DO UNTIL SHE DONE THIS TO ME ?"

go ask your own self before you judge others. Even our 'sister' also said the same things and yet you ignored her words and be the same you. If you don't want to listen to others word then don't asked for others opinion. soo IRRITATING ! 

**end of story for 30th june 2013.