effort

we will never get something that we really want without doing anything.. even a lil' something at least we've tried  and its better than nothing..
early in the morning with a sound of cricket out of my window where everybody still on their bed having a dream and wait till the the sunrise but i still watching at this bright screen just to filled a form for a further study through the upu online.. and this is the result since my eyes had tried really hard to stand and keep going until i've finished the last pages of that form.. quite hard to make a choice of all the courses that have provided by many different unversities..

thank you ! thank you ! thank you !

what the awesome night before i've gone to matric and leave this town where i'd found most of my life here..
the hardest part in my life is to leave my toasty and all his friends here more than a miles away from me ! i'll never could done this if not just one reason that is for my future and glory of my life and also for my religious.. trying really hard to achieve a success..

and now i've felt so sleepy my eyes no longer could stand whenever my head turned to the right where my fluffy pillow layed down on the perfect,comfort bed  makes me feel like there's no more sun to rise for tomorrow.. AARGGHH !

okey i'm fine with that just focus on our entry..!!
a guy who owned red's FORD FIESTA had drive me to every place where we could hang out and shared our story all night long.. the date but not really a "date" begin when i've got a phone called from 017XXXXXXX and named AIZAT HIDAYAT.. then we've talked asking where's your coordinate and telling mine and there we've meet each other and having a dinner at very perfect place named CROCODILE ROCK.. beef bolognese and ribena be the menu that i'm going to eat at that time and he choose to have fish 'n' chip all together with apple juice to complete the menu.. eat,talk,drink and laugh..
tup,tup !
we're here at the place where we could catch for a movie.. JOURNEY TO THE MYSTERIOUS ISLAND is our late night movie.. then,he drive me home and now i've gotta go,my pillow had called for my name
*wait i'm coming,i'm coming ! okey guys tengs for spending time to read for this entry.. zzZzzZZ

turned another 1 year

bufday cakes from my roomates
tengs guys ! (21 november 2011)

already eight_teen !
and i will ended my teens age this year and that's bad..
getting old makes me getting tired of making a decision.. there's too many thing that need our commitment so we will be more matured and learned to be more independent..
but,the question now can i get through all that..?
SHAFIRAH ROSLI is the kind of girl that never ever know what is the meaning of GIVE UP.. surely she can..!! in her life there is only one thing that could makes her down"she lost her relationship with ALLAH".. other than that will never could brings her down..for last 5 months she has been crying all day long just because of guy that she said she will never drop even a tears for that person.. but she did and she totally lost on the day she had lost him.. this is because of one feel that never last..
LOVE is the thing that makes people lost everything even they thought that they had owned this world once they've got love.. people will never satisfied with the things that they had just because of life that always brings a new thing..
NOW she have to move on with her life without a boy that care about her that loves her with his whole heart and always asking whether she is in the right condition or not.. another year that have been added to her age makes her be more independent and think positively no matter how hard the life brings to her.. left all the pain that she had yesterday behind her way and never turned back and looks to long at the closed door..
HAPPINESS is a thing that she need to find in her life and she know that she deserved to get that for her entire life.. no more tears of regret that could wet off her cheek and no more scars that could bleed her heart..
this is the promise to life that she will never ever regret of the things that ALLAH had gave it for her to try and have a chance to make a move for better life and be a great person..

once cut,twice grows

a story about this long hair..
extra long hair for a busy student like me is hard to manage..
wake up early in the morning having a shower then have to spend about more than 15 minutes to dry up this maxy hair.. its take to much time just to focus to one thing..

NO ! NO ! NO !

this is cannot be ! i cannot wasting my time just to care about my hair.. there's lot of thing to think about rather than just think about this hair.. I DO love my hair, I DO want a perfect hair, I DO want my hair always stay in place but this is not a perfect time for all that.. i will give my 100% attention to my hair right after i finished my contract with matriculation as their student..

live without soapy T_T

more than one week i live without him and this is totally unacceptable..
i still can live without anyone but i cannot live without you my dear.. since you've been in 'hospital' i can feel that my life is so empty..there's no one could filled this emptiness.. no one can !

i looking for you every single second..,
there will always brings me back to you and it's never take to long no matter how hard i've tried i still can feel you here.. please,GET WELL SOON ! 

i need you to be here right by my side,seriously i've lost start from the day i'd lost you.. 

i know sooner you'll back to me but right now i really need you but there's nothing could be done as long as you still not in a good condition..

every single second i always searching for you even i know you are not and never be here for this moment but i want you to know that i always mention for your name in every words i'd said.. this showed how much i miss you.. i've never learned to live without you before and this is because you are the one who taught me not to live without you.. and now i'm breathless..!! 

give but don't TAKE

the title seem not related to my entry for this moment in the blessing saturday evening where people spend most of their time walking around outside their house rather than being at home..

i also have no idea why it haven't cross in my mind to be at downtown like i used to be during last weekend.. maybe...,
there's nothing could be done at downtown unless wasting my time looking at the people that mind their own business and holding hands with their partner.. its totally killing me since now i live on my own without no one care about me unless my parents that's just if they care if they don't still all alone without no one.. having a dream on becoming a DRAMA QUEEN is a thought that never have their ending because once the sun appears and brighten the whole universe all of my dream will disappears to the sky as the clouds are marching along and the birds are singing a song just like they do and a piece of my new life begin..

let me talk about the thing that just happen in my life for this while..

***2 second ago

***2 hours ago

***2 days ago

***2 weeks ago

***2 month ago

not a usual things that always happened to me in my whole life..

lost the person that i love and when i'm look after him he said that he have tried to find me but there's no where place that could found me since i've remove him from my friend list.. from that i'd realized that he no longer need me and love me.. telling me that you have someone else that could replaced me in your heart makes me speechless for thousand words.. ALLAH have gave me a chance to know him but why must He tooks him aways from my life when i'm started to really love him.. life do so unfair but when i've look beyond that faith i knew that our heart is not owned by anyone but its own by ALLAH.. whenever i'd lost i'll come to ALLAH.. He knows everything because ALLAH ALMIGHTY..

memories wif ARBYUSRY

photos

first entry of all the photos that i have 

talking to the road

road is where i step on for this centuries and wondering what would replaced this tar-made road for the next centuries or maybe i haven't have a chance to see all that.. whatsoever there's lot of thing that we can figure it out rather than this nonsense thought..in the evening on the 1st day of 2012 i've wasting most of my time wif my friends.. doing lots of stupid thing that should be spend for more benefit things.. as long as i still a time to spend along with all of my friend i'll take that opportunity so i will never felt sorry for not doing so.. but still feel sorry for the thing that i've done since it is such a waste thing i've ever done.. catched for a JACK & JILL movie for this raining season together with a guy named IHSAN.. nothing left in my mind,almost all the memory of our date have been delete from my mind...

great NEW YEAR EVE

droomm~
peetttt,peettt..
many sound that we've heard while watching for a people that waiting for a countdown..
for sure there are lots of people waiting for this moment thought that it happened once a year.celebrating like there is no tomorrow was waiting and kissing like there is no one around and hugging like you are the only couple that still stick until new year..HELLO ! i'm here all alone obviously single feel sick watching you've done that in front of me.. my eyes can't barely stand for that..

*it's the thing that happen during NEW YEAR EVE..

whatsoever !

since we already enter to a new year,new number and new age so there are lot of things that we should think about.. responsible are getting bigger,burden are getting harder and this make my life lil'bit complicated..

DUSSHH~
no matter what happen,how hard life is,how strong a challenge is "LIFE MUST BE GO ON"..
new year we should breath in with a new soul and blow out the old one.. gudbye 2011 and say hello to 2012 

this entry is not to welcome the year of 2012 but the purpose is only to share how me and my closest friend name farsha celebrate our NEW YEAR..

**the story begin...,

me and farsha meet at our best port then we walk down the hall and up the road and we reached at our first place called east coast mall then we decided to catch a movie and finally we up with a title start with the very nonsense story the DARKEST HOUR..you will regret if u choose for this one..!!!

stupidest movie i've ever watched..opss,bfore i forgot actually there is one place that attracted us to spend our time bfore our movie begin is the bestest home-made coffee that is STARBUCK COFFEE.. it is raining out there so why not we have a short break bfore we live our whole night long with a grande size JAVA CHIP with CARAMEL topping on top of it.. 

take our time at the place where we could smell a fresh roasted coffee bean and now you know what's angel drink..then,we moved to the place where we can rest our body for a while and watching for a false movie.. no matter how SUCKSS that movie is we still chill ourself since we know our aim to spend time with better than didn't know where to go.. rite after we done with our movie we pointing to the next destination called MEGAMALL heard there is a countdown for NEW YEAR EVE CELEBRATION organised by DIGI.. from 80 metres apart we could see that there are billion of people waiting for that moment.. for us that is not a matter since we're not pointing there to celebrating the new year but both of us want to having fun together..bowling is a main aim for us on that time..then,we booked for the 23 lane and we've started our game..pung,pang,pung,pang..the winner is me and i made it to take down 79 pin all together.. huraayy for me..
5,4,3,2 and 1...,HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY !! finally so long 2011 and hello 2012.. new number,new digit,new life and new inspiration.. its all about new me..!! nothing else that could describe how wonderful i feel for this new year.. I FEEL BLESSED.. craping around since my eyes didn't get enough sleep and lack of rest my mind also affected by this hormone that makes me type anything that i think it is related to this post.. okey that's all for now.. gudnite